when

when will someone intelligent who'se not a concierge or a garage thug talk to me or hang out with me or be my friend
when the fuck will i have a friend or be asked to hang out, or invited to a party or to go out for drinks.
when the fuck will be in a group of friends and enjoy company and conversation of intelligent educated women of my age or of any fucking age?

when the fuck will i have a friend?

i haven't had a friend for over eight years. i haven't been to a party since 1996.

i haven't been to a beach since 2004.

i've had no one to talk to since 2006 or 2007, and before that since 1997.

when the fuck will i have a car or a job or go camping or to the beach or have friends or have a girlfriend or a wife?

when the fuck will all my knowledge and erudition be shown to anyone and when will i get any reward for it?

when the fuck will all the books and media i have  can be put on the SAME damned set of bookshelves in one place, not rotting away in boxes?

when the fuck will i have a decent desk or work table?

when the fuck will my cousins or former friends miss me?