hopefully no otants today.
otants.
again mother fuck.
again i wake then the
chest fucks up and get fucking raped.
again coughing rape session from 0330 to 0406+++
and no normal. all fucking strong coughs. all fucking loud
all making the thugs around me comment and gloat at me.
again it's as if i haven't fucking slept.
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again mother fuck.
again i wake then the chest fucks up and get fucking raped.
again coughing rape session from 0330 to 0406+++
still fucked
nearly two hours after fucking waking up
0521 after ridding / depriving me of privacy peace quiet a moment to myself
after a fucked day a fucked week and a fucked month
the thugs start slamming my neighbors' car doors behind my rooms.
spot in the trachea/bronchus inflammed, w/ pain felt front and back
of the chest at that infernal spot.
and no normal. all fucking strong coughs. all fucking loud
all making the thugs around me comment and gloat at me.
again it's as if i haven't fucking slept.
threw up the fucking phlegm and spit that's accumulated in my fucking stomach.
0425 tea.
chest still hurts, inflammed.
the mad maddeningly strong coughs subside, but coughing remains
and so does a thread of sputum laden muccous right down my fucking oesaphagus
after i finally curse aloud.
the thugs start making noises ni the back alley.
0432 lost line in the middle of a fucking otant
0435 chest gets worse again, stronger fucking coughs again.
after the cables due to the shoddy qlty fo the products they sell us in this
baboon pit , i knock my computers against each other then to the floor.
0514 still fucked
nearly two hours after fucking waking up
0521 after ridding / depriving me of privacy peace quiet a moment to myself
after a fucked day a fucked week and a fucked month
the thugs start slamming my neighbors' car doors behind my rooms.
0530 still in fucking pain, devastated and coughing, sweaty and cold w/ runny nose light headed and angry as a glowering ember.
i desperately want to insult and curse others. i want to transfer the amount of anger and pain i feel.
particularly that i can't smash things or yell as this will elicit reactions of hooting and honking and cat calling and ridicule from the street thugs surrounding my apartment.
0538 fucked raped and devastated
with room in disarray to boot.
same as happened yesterday at noon. and pretty much every other day since 2006 when all that fucking sawdust got into my lungs .
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